I watched as you drove away. The things that went through my mind was, if I should run after you, or if I should let you go. & I just stood there, I wanted to run after you, but the image of crushing the light that once lived in your eyes kept replaying in my mind, and I couldn't. Because how could I make you stay when all I give you is pain? I'm having a war with myself that I need you here to complete my life, but I want you to be happy, and god dammit of course I chose your happiness over mine. I can no longer be selfish with you. In this very moment I hope you were able to sleep as I struggle with the thoughts of only you, and I hope that when your doing whatever your doing that your able to focus on it while I'm distracted thinking about you, and I hope you're happy every second of the day, while during those seconds is where I only ever think about you.